My Journey as a Writer documents my journey as I rediscover my love of writing, and push forward into a new career path. Watch for new posts on Mondays and Thursdays.
Part 1 includes –
- Why do I want to blog?
- I started this blog for me – and maybe you, too.
- Fourth attempt.
- Zero expectations.
Why do I want to blog?
08-26-19 | A few months ago, I got it in my head that I wanted to start a blog. It got stuck in my head like an annoying song you hear on the radio.
The most prominent reason for me wanting to do this blog is pretty simple. I wanted something, anything, to get me in the habit of writing and publishing content regularly. A small percentage of my writing is published for anyone to see. Much of my writing remains private and in some degree of unfinished completion. I don’t post things on my website until they’re finished. Well, as finished as they will get. I’m getting better at finishing projects and drawing a line in the dirt, but, still have a ways to go.
This blog is about my journey as a writer. I plan to document my journey – the failures, successes, and obstacles that I face along the way. I’m rediscovering my love of writing and starting out on my new journey. It’s more than that, though. I don’t want to just start writing again – I’ve decided that I want to be a professional writer.
I started this blog for me – and maybe you, too.
“Write for yourself” should be rule #1. I write for me. I write things that I would want to read. I’m my biggest fan, but also my worst critic. I’m someone who enjoyed writing in my past life, took a break (my break lasted 15+ years), but now wants to start writing again. I think people that find themselves in a similar situation could benefit from this blog.
It’s more complicated than I thought it would be to start a blog. I’m not an expert on anything. I don’t have a niche – other than hopefully it’s a relatable journey. [We’re all on some kind of journey.] I like to write, and right now, that’s enough to keep me going with this project.
Another appeal for blogging is the opportunity to create my own content. So many people on social media – especially Facebook and even LinkedIn – share or recycle someone else’s material. And, once you post something to social media on the big sites, it gets lost in the obscurity. Having your own blog, and especially a unique domain name – such as JasonSSullivan.com – helps you stand out.
I scrapped my first three attempts at a blog. I wrote and posted some of the content, but it wasn’t working for me. Actually, my fourth attempt is the second try at my first idea. It sounds confusing because it is. I came back to the idea that I should have stayed with in the first place. Sometimes you have to try a few ideas before you realize the first idea wasn’t that bad.
It feels satisfying to know that I’ve already failed at this. It means I’m trying something new. I’m stepping out of my comfort zone, which frankly, I need to do that more often – especially if I want to make it as a writer.
It feels good to start over. How many times in life do you get to start over? Even after a few false starts, I still have the desire to start a blog. You would think I would just give up. Not yet. This is something I want to do – even if I’m my own audience for it.
I went into this attempt with zero expectations. I didn’t say “realistic” expectations – I said zero expectations. That way, if the slightest thing goes well, I’ve exceeded my expectations.
I say that, but obviously, I want this to be successful. A key aspect of success is knowing what it is and able to define it. I’m still thinking about that.
I don’t expect anyone to read this. Part of me doesn’t want anyone to read it. That’s a weird concept. Why would you spend time and effort writing something and not want anyone to read it? Why would you put in a public place, like a blog or website? Why not just keep it in a private journal?
It’s not that I don’t want people to read it. It’s more like I don’t care if people read it. Not yet. Is that passive-aggressive? Or is just neurotic? I don’t know the answer to that.
The damned irony, of course, is that becoming a published author is the ultimate goal for my writing. I have to keep telling myself – to reach that goal, you’ll probably want other people to read your writing – don’t ya think, Jason? Sometimes I hate being right.